The Apathy

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 06:02:23 GMT

My Life:

Test your might bitches...

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 06:42:51 GMT

Wow, sure has been awhile hasnt it? Well I just got home and after coming off a poker buzz im probably not sleepin anytime soon so here is my triumphant return to livejournal. I guarantee 99% of you who actually read this shit have stopped reading my journal (God that sounds gay doesnt it) by now but im bored and this is something to do, so as I always say WHY NOT? Besides winning in poker the highlight of the day was watching 3 of my terror campers cry cause greg shannon and I didnt give them snowcones. Thats how fucking ridiculously spoiled some of these kids are and it sickens me. 2 days till Ozzfest. TWO MOTHER FUCKING DAYS. No seriously, I get to see Iron Maiden in 2 days. It hasnt even really sunk in yet, probably cause I still kind of feel like ass from being sick. I feel like my entire summer has been leading up to ozzfest and it really makes me realize that school is just around the corner. Im so not ready yet, not even close. I am very curious and anxious to see what this school year brings however. Theres been a lot of changes in a lot of people's lives, including my own, so we'll see how everything pans out. Hmmmmm I was going to express my disappointment for ########## GO CENSORSHIP! ########## On another note, I cant stop thinking about a certain streak-haired girl whos visiting Brazil right now. 8 days is a loooooooong time to be completely out of reach with anyone, let alone someone you talk to every single day and see every other day. What if something bad happens I mean shes in Brazil right? Bad shit can happen in Brazil, I mean Vitor Belfort's sister got kidnapped there, not to mention all the God-forsaken diseases in that place. The worst part though is that if something did happen I wouldnt even hear about it until when? Yea, see the concern? Whatever though Im sure everything is gonna be ok, I just cant wait until shes finally back and safe and in my arms. Yea, thatd be nice...

Thats all everybody im probably not gonna be back for awhile again so I guess until next time take it easy and stop listening to shitty music

Later

Sun, 15 May 2005 06:34:18 GMT

Hmmmmmmm what to write, what to write... A lot of shit happened tonight so I guess thats why I feel like I should put something in here. I guess the only for sure thing to write at the moment is watch out for the trio of awesomeness NORTHBROOK THE BAND (working title) bashing your face in with an endless onslaught of music sometime this summer. Yea thats it for now, we'll see how my life pans out in the next couple days.

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 21:02:11 GMT

My life is a poorly written soap opera. The problem is it shouldnt be. Ive got way too much shit to deal with as far as school goes to be worrying about stupid bullshit drama. I need a break. Badly...

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 23:35:52 GMT

I just got done watching Carlos Mencia's standup on TV and I really gotta say wow. If any of you get a chance to go see him or watch his shit definitely do it. He is fucking hilarious and has such a good message.

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 06:31:43 GMT

I want to update this shit but Ive really got nothing to say at the moment. Im waiting for the new evolution trailer to download and its taking FOREVER. Yet another thing that I am looking forward to this summer. So far I am undefeated in summer tournaments and after this summer I will remain undefeated. (I realize probably none of you know what the hell im talking about so just dont worry about it) Lets see here since I am extremely bored lets run through a list of the top 20 things I am looking forward to this summer
20 Not having a full school schedule (although im gonna be in summer school tuesday and thursday nights)
19 Being near a chipotle
18 CvSNK tournaments
17 Throwing food at campers
16 Basketball with an occasional shot of football or calvinball
15 Having a car
14 Megadeth?
13 Getting my fake
12 Destroying my house with my guitar
11 ECW ONE NIGHT STAND PPV
10 FSU time
9 Wingfest?
8 Marshfest?
7 Outdoor fires
6 Annual July 4th insanity at May's lakehouse
5 Trampoline. Period.
4 Having 3 consistant places to party all summer
3 Judas Priest for the second time
2 All the dumb shit we're gonnna do and film (man I hope that stun gun doesnt hurt as much as I think its going to)
1 IRON FUCKING MAIDEN AT OZZFEST

I just gotta know...

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:17:54 GMT

Does anyone else get the urge to rock everyone in the face wearing a "Vote for Pedro" shirt? Speaking of which, Weaver and I almost got in a fight last night with these UNC fans. Good times.

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 09:00:14 GMT

I dont know why I only update this thing when im drunk, probably because there is really nothing else to do at 4 in the morning. Basically all you need to know was this weekend was absoultly insane. Everything from people locking keys in their to car to catfights to cell phones being dropped off balconies to ricky martin lunchboxes to absolutely wrecking my knee on the pool table to wrestling and OWNING santa (I have fucking bruises from that) and everything else in between. Haha wait a minute, all of that shit was just last night. The best part of it, is people plan on drinking through monday night too, so this 2 day weekend has just turned into a 5 day weekend from thursday night until monday night. God help me make it to classes on monday...

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 18:26:40 GMT

!~UY@%$~Y^!!$#~~#@E

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 07:39:02 GMT

If you are so different, why does it feel the same?

Facing what consumes you is the only way to be free.
Released from those poisonous fears.
Resurrected once and for all.
You want me to hold my tongue,
Then why the fuck am I here?
You want me to bottle my rage,
Cause you never had the heart to say what I say.
My life, my body, my pride.
You have no opinion, no right.
I've built myself nothing like you.
My refusal is my way of life.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 22:57:11 GMT

I dont know after what just happened youd think Id be sad or depressed but im not at all. After the conversation I just had I felt a rush of self-confidence come over me. Its almost like im going back to being my old self. Dont get me wrong im gonna miss her, I just missed me even more. We both knew it was gonna come down to this, so lets not fight it anymore.

Its thursday night bitches. Time to fly.

OH and one more thing noone can be taken seriously with a Livejournal so im done.

Embrace the Hate

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 08:34:03 GMT

I dont know why ive been going on a livejournal binge recently but its happening. Actually I know exactly why but I really just dont want to admit it. Speaking of not wanting to admit things, Alyssa and I had a very long and very interesting conversation tonight about a lot of shit happening particularly in my life. A lot of things she said made a ton of sense to me and I think I am starting to see things from a different perspective now. Sometimes I fucking hate it when that girl is right but unfortunately she does know me and in a really strange way I almost feel like she knows whats best for me. She has always kind of filled the older sister role in my life and its nice to have that again. I dont know I guess we'll see what happens from here on out. (That seems to be an underlying theme in my life at the moment)

I have so much more to say
I have so much more to fight for

~Hatebreed

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:52:39 GMT

Holy Shit! part 2. There is ANOTHER song on DDR extreme which is built around another Konami game (same series as the one before). The song is called "Your Rain" and features a girl named Mary... Im I the only person who can really appreciate this?

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:39:38 GMT

Holy Shit! One more thing, I just loaded up DDR Extreme and one of the unlockable songs is "You're not here" by an artist named Heather... Sound familiar? Of course this probably doesnt mean shit to most of you but an interesting little tidbit for those of you who understand the reference. Konami owns.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:16:48 GMT

Oh wow... After months and months of bitching I think its finally time for a positive update. I thought I was failing miserably in my Visual Basic class. I had an F before the test (I thought I bombed) and turned in my program that barely met half the requirements. I got a C+ on the test and a 25/30 on the program which puts me at a solid D in the class. Not to mention I thought I accidently blew off a quiz in stats BUT it was only a test retake and it turns out I got an 84 on the first test. Today has been my ascent out of academic hell. In addition to that, I went on a walk at like two in the morning with Alyssa last night and things are finally cool between us. She really is a great girl and im looking forward to hanging out with her more often. That will be all for now.
P.S. I lied, Victim of Changes isnt my favorite Priest song, I totally forgot about Painkiller.

HE IS THE PAINKILLER

THIS IS THE PAINKILLER

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 19:05:50 GMT

Goodbye...

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 06:00:35 GMT

Haha are you kidding me? I cant do anything but look at the sky and shake my head at this point...

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 23:47:09 GMT

How the hell did I get here?

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 09:03:35 GMT

Haha yea only one picture can really describe my spring break
http://community.webshots.com/photo/298001855/298002494pRUsNB

Thats right ladies and gentlemen this is chris may standing in my bathroom minutes after getting blasted in the face with pepper spray. Haha God I love home...

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 23:36:43 GMT

Dont let my feelings for you die in vain

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 05:13:44 GMT

I have no new posts and lauren is a dork.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 05:35:39 GMT

I... yea. Nevermind.

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 22:34:29 GMT

Well I really meant what I said 5 days ago but now things are changing again, and theres never any way of knowing if its for the best or the worst. Honestly, im just sick of thinking about the whole situation. I need some kind of closure.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 06:27:19 GMT

If Ive learned anything from this experience, its make sure the things that make you happy in life will always remain constant (despite what I used to think). My friends, my family, football, and my music will always be there for me and essentially thats all I need. In addition to that, dont regret anything. Life is too short to have regrets and way too short to be unhappy. I thank you for the experiences we shared and I will never forget you.

Alright its time to use another horrible analogy but right now feels like the end of silent hill 2. James needed to realize that he needed to get over the death of mary, but events in his life made him keep hoping and keep wondering if someday they could be together again. Throughout the story James realizes that he was actually the one that killed mary because he couldnt handle seeing her suffer dying of cancer anymore, and the denial masked the truth from him. In the end, James drives off a bridge and kills himself. Haha, actually my situation reminds me nothing of silent hill but I fucking love that game.

The point is Im back everybody. Im sick of going to bed depressed. Im sick of feeling like there is no hope for me, no hope for anyone. For someone who preaches standing up and fighting for what you want, for what you believe in, I sure havent been practicing what I preach. My mind has always been stronger than my heart and its about damn time for me to start acting like it.

I guess thats it for now I really dont have anything else to say. I think im gonna take a Livejournal hiatus for awhile and start focusing on whats important in my own life.

Thanks for listening and I'll be back someday...

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 22:09:28 GMT

I just got done looking at some old pics from home and craven is absolutely right. I have turned into a complete and utter pussy. I dont even need to bother telling you why hes right, look at me. I AM TYPING THIS IN A LIVEJOURNAL. Seriously what the fuck has happened to me? I used to live a life of no regrets and that is simply not the case anymore, until now. Its time to go out and fucking live again. It starts tonight.